I think my blog is under censorship issues now. Ah well. Mel thinks I shouldn't mention about certain stuff in my blog. Right. Privacy I guess.
Things with Mel's quite shaky. She seems to think I'm angry with her sometimes for no reason. Sigh. I don't know. Can't really say much here, but I think cause of the bad week's she having, I feel as if she's taking it out on me or something. Anyway, moving on...
Upcoming camp this Monday at Sentosa. Well, sorta looking forward to it cause of the fun and games. Jingjing will be there, so will Candice. Haven't seen her for ages man. And Grace's gonna be there too. Cool stuff. Bunking with Jingjing if I'm not wrong. Yay. And I get to meet other new people too.
Helped Yao Chong at this Community Service Programme Camp on Thursday with filming. The whole afternoon the participants were doing the high elements stuff. So I was stuck outdoors to film people doing all those height stuff. As usual, some of the new people I met said my face quite du-lan. Ah well, don't blame me. Not that I chose it; I'm born with this face. So live with it, you suckers. HAHA! Alright, a bit too crude.
I'm on another pact. Not that I'm complaining. Pacts are meant to change things for the better. Cool stuff.
I think it's either I'm tired and thus grumpy, OR, I feel quite irritated by some people. Ugh. Better go to sleep before I piss myself off. Haha.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
I had dinner with mom.
One on one. SCARY...
Alright. It wasn't THAT bad. But oh well, at least I was feeling bitchy so I was talking and debating with her most of the time. Mac's Chicken foldover's good man. Healthy (come on, it is a foldover with grilled chicken. Even mac food can be a lil healthy right.) and VERY satisfying.
And we took a bus back to Sengkang together. My mom, being her usual self, starts bitching about the smelly, noisy or sick passengers in the bus. Ha. Quite entertaining.
ANYWAY... Quite a few random things happened to me today. Andy from MJC suddenly messaged to ask me out for clubbing tonight. I mean... Like, don't you just go clubbing with your close pals? Not that I'm dissing him or something. But like, yeah, it'll be pretty weird if I go with acquaintances and not close friends who are already used to my unglam behaviour. And besides, I haven't been feeling tops this whole week, so I turned down the offer.
My mom's gonna sell the condo. If all goes well, we can actually do the following:
NUMBER 1: Get our very own HDB flat, 4 rm/3 rm. As long as I get MY OWN ROOM which will be able to contain my beloved piano, a nice dark oak study table and a nice queen-sized bed... And granny can still stay with us, so she'll have company.
NUMBER 2: Mom's intending to get a car. WOW. Surprise surprise. We've never discussed the topic of getting a car ever since we scrapped the cute red one we had centuries ago. Well, her reasoning was pretty logical. Transportation for granny mostly. And other than that, for her own usage. AND for me, it's LATE NIGHTS OUT. HAHAHAHAHA. Right. Maybe I'm thinking too far. But oh well. Daydreaming once in a while's alright. :)
NUMBER 3: Linking to the 2nd point, I can finally find some form of motivation to go learn to drive a car. Like, seriously, there's really not much point in learning how to drive if you don't have a family car to begin with.
BUT. Apart from all that, it seems that my dad may be using some of the money to pay his debts off. I NEVER knew he still had debts. Thank goodness mom didn't tell me until today, when I'm alot more mature and calmer about this matter. Or else, I would have really... Alright, not much I can do. I can't possibly strangle him, since he's miles and miles away. Haha.
Well, at least if this goes through, mom can pay for my university fees completely without any form of bank loan or something. It would really suck if I took a loan; I've to start paying for that loan/'debt' as soon as I start work. Shikes.
Pissed Mel off with some harsh words I put to her about Joe and herself. I am feeling quite bad, but I guess sucky stuff happens. Well, at least for once I've seen Mel's Hell side. Haha. Okie, not a very good time to joke about this.
I shall just shut up and go to sleep before mom comes out of the room to yell at me again.
I think Pert's right. She's having a menopause.
I feel loved. Yay. For once, I truly, genuinely, honestly, absolutely feel it. Alright, getting random here. Will stop ranting away.
Alright. It wasn't THAT bad. But oh well, at least I was feeling bitchy so I was talking and debating with her most of the time. Mac's Chicken foldover's good man. Healthy (come on, it is a foldover with grilled chicken. Even mac food can be a lil healthy right.) and VERY satisfying.
And we took a bus back to Sengkang together. My mom, being her usual self, starts bitching about the smelly, noisy or sick passengers in the bus. Ha. Quite entertaining.
ANYWAY... Quite a few random things happened to me today. Andy from MJC suddenly messaged to ask me out for clubbing tonight. I mean... Like, don't you just go clubbing with your close pals? Not that I'm dissing him or something. But like, yeah, it'll be pretty weird if I go with acquaintances and not close friends who are already used to my unglam behaviour. And besides, I haven't been feeling tops this whole week, so I turned down the offer.
My mom's gonna sell the condo. If all goes well, we can actually do the following:
NUMBER 1: Get our very own HDB flat, 4 rm/3 rm. As long as I get MY OWN ROOM which will be able to contain my beloved piano, a nice dark oak study table and a nice queen-sized bed... And granny can still stay with us, so she'll have company.
NUMBER 2: Mom's intending to get a car. WOW. Surprise surprise. We've never discussed the topic of getting a car ever since we scrapped the cute red one we had centuries ago. Well, her reasoning was pretty logical. Transportation for granny mostly. And other than that, for her own usage. AND for me, it's LATE NIGHTS OUT. HAHAHAHAHA. Right. Maybe I'm thinking too far. But oh well. Daydreaming once in a while's alright. :)
NUMBER 3: Linking to the 2nd point, I can finally find some form of motivation to go learn to drive a car. Like, seriously, there's really not much point in learning how to drive if you don't have a family car to begin with.
BUT. Apart from all that, it seems that my dad may be using some of the money to pay his debts off. I NEVER knew he still had debts. Thank goodness mom didn't tell me until today, when I'm alot more mature and calmer about this matter. Or else, I would have really... Alright, not much I can do. I can't possibly strangle him, since he's miles and miles away. Haha.
Well, at least if this goes through, mom can pay for my university fees completely without any form of bank loan or something. It would really suck if I took a loan; I've to start paying for that loan/'debt' as soon as I start work. Shikes.
Pissed Mel off with some harsh words I put to her about Joe and herself. I am feeling quite bad, but I guess sucky stuff happens. Well, at least for once I've seen Mel's Hell side. Haha. Okie, not a very good time to joke about this.
I shall just shut up and go to sleep before mom comes out of the room to yell at me again.
I think Pert's right. She's having a menopause.
I feel loved. Yay. For once, I truly, genuinely, honestly, absolutely feel it. Alright, getting random here. Will stop ranting away.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
SIGH.
I feel sad.
Not because of my horrid headache which bugged me the whole day despite me taking 2 full panadols.
Not because Mel feels shitty... Alright, I do feel bugged by her feeling upset. Cheer up girl, things will be fine.
Not because I'm staying in Sengkang. I'm over it... For now.
AND the best part? Retail therapy doesn't work anymore for me. That kinda sucks.
Maybe I'm cursed. Can't believe PJ actually told me it's a good day for me. RIIIIIGHT.
Not because of my horrid headache which bugged me the whole day despite me taking 2 full panadols.
Not because Mel feels shitty... Alright, I do feel bugged by her feeling upset. Cheer up girl, things will be fine.
Not because I'm staying in Sengkang. I'm over it... For now.
AND the best part? Retail therapy doesn't work anymore for me. That kinda sucks.
Maybe I'm cursed. Can't believe PJ actually told me it's a good day for me. RIIIIIGHT.
I feel so achy all over.
Like, as if someone picked me up from the bed and started bashing me up.
My head feels horrible, my arms' muscles feel tight without me flexing them. Only my legs feel alright. That's sorta weird eh. Oh, and my spine's feeling off-ish again.
Sigh. I feel old. And I'm not even 20 yet. Shikes man. Must start taking care of my body... RIGHT. Haha.
Maybe I should go jogging tonight; I'll probably feel more relaxed and refreshed. BUT, before that, I've to meet Mel in town to accompany her while she looks for a cross pendant for Joe... And I've tuition with the adorable Korean kid till 8.30 pm. SHIKES. Long day ahead.
I was just walking through the jogging route link between Bedok and East Coast Road on Sunday. Since my digicam was with me, I thought I might as well try to take some artsy pictures while I stroll back home. Quite a reflective walk despite the horrible humid weather.
My head feels horrible, my arms' muscles feel tight without me flexing them. Only my legs feel alright. That's sorta weird eh. Oh, and my spine's feeling off-ish again.
Sigh. I feel old. And I'm not even 20 yet. Shikes man. Must start taking care of my body... RIGHT. Haha.
Maybe I should go jogging tonight; I'll probably feel more relaxed and refreshed. BUT, before that, I've to meet Mel in town to accompany her while she looks for a cross pendant for Joe... And I've tuition with the adorable Korean kid till 8.30 pm. SHIKES. Long day ahead.
I was just walking through the jogging route link between Bedok and East Coast Road on Sunday. Since my digicam was with me, I thought I might as well try to take some artsy pictures while I stroll back home. Quite a reflective walk despite the horrible humid weather.
It's pretty cool how among so many big houses, there'll be this quiet row of shophouses. There's this Big Ben UK pie house which I'd love to visit soon.
The last bit of the route I was walking through. I know it was quite random. But walking through this small road was like a transition between the real world and the relaxing fantasy of feeling free and easy. Dreaded going home actually. Haha.
That's about it for today. OH OH. It's 2 months exactly from my birthday.. AND 3 months from misery. Haha. I'll survive, somehow.
Another thing. Mel, I LOVE YOU! Don't worry too much; you know Kez and I will always be there rooting for ya! ^___^
Monday, June 25, 2007
Drama mama
I dreaded tonight. I HATE moving to Sengkang. I’ve no closet, no proper bed and NO privacy. Ugh. I don’t understand why my mom’s so stubborn. I know that this is making things difficult for her. But it’s like, can’t they fuckin’ think for me as well?! All my tuitions are somewhere near Bedok. And I HATE living with my aunt, ever since she STUPIDLY, let me repeat, STUPIDLY RETARDEDLY decided to make her children study at some lok-cok school in Sengkang, AND THEN make my mom take care of them there. Retarded fucker. Now that grandma is sick, we ALL have to stay with that fucked up aunt and her husband.
Please don’t mind my flowery language for now. I’m just feeling really frustrated. Can’t understand why they just won’t let me stay in Bedok myself. I’m 20. GIVE ME A BREAK!
“What if something happens to you?” Blah blah blah. Oh come on, if I’m meant to die, then I can’t escape from it right. Surely my mom should understand that fact. Retards. ARGH! THIS IS SO FREAKIN’ UNFAIR!!!!!
Never mind about that... For now.
Hung out with Mel and Kez after church. Mel was feeling shitty about not being to meet Joe today and possibly for the entire week. So I was trying to cheer her up. Kez was feeling sick too, so I was trying to cheer both of them up. Haha. Well, at least Mel did cheer up... Not thanks to me. Haha. Joe messaged her in the end; there was sunshine literally blooming out of her face. As for me, I felt a bit sad. I miss him, but I can’t go see him. That explains the expressions on our faces. Heh.
Oh yeah, the new watermelon earrings I bought from Heeren’s Flowers From The Attic. Cute eh.
Bittersweet – That’s love for you. Tough luck.
Okay, now I feel a bit better. Partly because I spilled all these stupid feelings out. AND, he’s actually making the effort to come find me. Feel so loved now. Haha.
OMG. This is very drastic. What’s with Joe nowadays?!!!
Please don’t mind my flowery language for now. I’m just feeling really frustrated. Can’t understand why they just won’t let me stay in Bedok myself. I’m 20. GIVE ME A BREAK!
“What if something happens to you?” Blah blah blah. Oh come on, if I’m meant to die, then I can’t escape from it right. Surely my mom should understand that fact. Retards. ARGH! THIS IS SO FREAKIN’ UNFAIR!!!!!
Never mind about that... For now.
Hung out with Mel and Kez after church. Mel was feeling shitty about not being to meet Joe today and possibly for the entire week. So I was trying to cheer her up. Kez was feeling sick too, so I was trying to cheer both of them up. Haha. Well, at least Mel did cheer up... Not thanks to me. Haha. Joe messaged her in the end; there was sunshine literally blooming out of her face. As for me, I felt a bit sad. I miss him, but I can’t go see him. That explains the expressions on our faces. Heh.
Oh yeah, the new watermelon earrings I bought from Heeren’s Flowers From The Attic. Cute eh. Bittersweet – That’s love for you. Tough luck.
Okay, now I feel a bit better. Partly because I spilled all these stupid feelings out. AND, he’s actually making the effort to come find me. Feel so loved now. Haha.
OMG. This is very drastic. What’s with Joe nowadays?!!!
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Tiring day
Yep, been out since 9 in the morning. elgin's wedding followed by band prac with understudy.. Then had to arrange song stuff with Doris and the other worship night leaders, THEN band prac for tomorrow's Youth service. OMG. I feel so ach-ish all over. I need someone to re-fix my spine. It's been feeling... Off. Haha.
Not that I want to complain. But yeah, I'm really tired. Someone pls give me some love. Haha. Feel so unloved today. ANYWAY...
Met Jingjing for dinner at Hong Kong Cafe today. Rootin' for ya, girl. Don't worry. I'm sure you'll find some girl pretty... Or hopefully a macho guy, as you promised me years ago. :) Or else, I'm gonna make you eat a whole gallon of cheese. Wahaha.
Haven't ran this whole week. DAMN. But this whole week's been SO tiring. Ugh. But nice things happened. ^___^
Not that I want to complain. But yeah, I'm really tired. Someone pls give me some love. Haha. Feel so unloved today. ANYWAY...
Met Jingjing for dinner at Hong Kong Cafe today. Rootin' for ya, girl. Don't worry. I'm sure you'll find some girl pretty... Or hopefully a macho guy, as you promised me years ago. :) Or else, I'm gonna make you eat a whole gallon of cheese. Wahaha.
Haven't ran this whole week. DAMN. But this whole week's been SO tiring. Ugh. But nice things happened. ^___^
Friday, June 22, 2007
Lazy day
I feel lazy today.
And like, a bit dizzy figuratively.
Well, at least I can still go work out and play tennis with Ruperto tonight. But I had to cancel Shi Yun's piano lesson today cause I had to do sth for granny.
But recently, I've been getting really bad headaches. Shaun had a really bad one the other day; so bad that he threw up and the doc said that it's a symptom of getting a stroke. SCARY!!!!
Anyhoo.. I just wrote this christiany song myself at home. Usually I'll lock myself up in the study room where I'll just stone and play the piano and think of stuff and reflect yada yada. Good time for self-reflection. No wonder pianists usually are emo or suicidal or sth. They think ALOT abt other stuff instead of focussing on playing whatever on the keys. That's what I've been doing. Anyway, here it is. Not very perfectly smoothed out yet. But heck la.
I've been lost for so long
But You brought me back to the place I belong
Memories rushing to me
How You loved and forgave me
(That's the 1st verse. But I need 1 more verse. ANYWAY, here's the pre-chorus and chorus)
Though I may leave You behind sometimes
You never left my side
You kept to Your promise of loving me
And never letting me go
Now I give to You a promise I'll never break
From now on, I'm Yours
Forever, Lord, I'm Yours
Oh yeah, the title's I'm Yours. Well, pretty obvious. HAHA.
Pretty excited about this song-writing, although melodies I come up myself are quite emo... And quite sad. Haha. AH well.
And like, a bit dizzy figuratively.
Well, at least I can still go work out and play tennis with Ruperto tonight. But I had to cancel Shi Yun's piano lesson today cause I had to do sth for granny.
But recently, I've been getting really bad headaches. Shaun had a really bad one the other day; so bad that he threw up and the doc said that it's a symptom of getting a stroke. SCARY!!!!
Anyhoo.. I just wrote this christiany song myself at home. Usually I'll lock myself up in the study room where I'll just stone and play the piano and think of stuff and reflect yada yada. Good time for self-reflection. No wonder pianists usually are emo or suicidal or sth. They think ALOT abt other stuff instead of focussing on playing whatever on the keys. That's what I've been doing. Anyway, here it is. Not very perfectly smoothed out yet. But heck la.
I've been lost for so long
But You brought me back to the place I belong
Memories rushing to me
How You loved and forgave me
(That's the 1st verse. But I need 1 more verse. ANYWAY, here's the pre-chorus and chorus)
Though I may leave You behind sometimes
You never left my side
You kept to Your promise of loving me
And never letting me go
Now I give to You a promise I'll never break
From now on, I'm Yours
Forever, Lord, I'm Yours
Oh yeah, the title's I'm Yours. Well, pretty obvious. HAHA.
Pretty excited about this song-writing, although melodies I come up myself are quite emo... And quite sad. Haha. AH well.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Badly constructed entry
I wish I can actually set up this password thingy for the blog. Restrict access. But Colin/Kezia were kinda right. What's the point of having a blog if you don't want people to read it. AIYA. I also don't know how to explain. SIGH.
Clement called me last night, and we chatted for at least an hour. It was an extremely fruitful conversation. Can't wait for him to return to Singapore, now that I can't go to Aussie. Cousin's pregnant, so she's coming back to be well-nutritioned before she goes back to give birth to the lil kiddo. I'm gonna be an aunt! OMG! How freaky. But i'm happy for her.
Roy's father just passed away; helped him play for the 2 funeral services last night and this morning. I didn't even know the man and i almost cried. Sigh. The keyboard I had to use was HORRID though. The keys kept getting stuck. Argh. Irritating sia, make me sound so amateur once again. HAHA. RIGHT, I'm just being really bitchy. Maybe I'm still amateur. SIGH.
Well, at least I wrote a song by myself. And I'm learning to play jazz latin songs with Ruperto. Very fulfilling for my music aspect of life.
Tennis tomorrow with Ruperto. EXCITING!!! I haven't had much time this week to really work out. Sigh. I'm SOOOOO gonna have more lard deposited in my body bank.
I notice I've been getting a lil random and sorta bimbo-ish/dumb these few days.. Not sure why. Maybe the 1 yr break of not studying is finally taking its toll on me, now that I'm gonna start studying real soon.
Jeremy's my new Big MAMA!!! He taught me how to roller-blade.. AND, he brings plastic bags to keep our slippers while blading. So mother-ish feelin. Hahahaha. And I had 2 gelare waffles on tues. Of course I shared with people. Or else I'm gonna be SOOOOO fat.
My mom's not keeping the condo for my 21st birthday as I hoped. She's selling it to buy a HDB flat. Not that I'm complaining, but what's the use of a new flat when we still have to take care of granny at her place. SIGH.
This entry's terribly constructed. Freakin' random.
Oh, I've a pet phrase for this month: karmically bitch-slapped
COOL HUH?!
Clement called me last night, and we chatted for at least an hour. It was an extremely fruitful conversation. Can't wait for him to return to Singapore, now that I can't go to Aussie. Cousin's pregnant, so she's coming back to be well-nutritioned before she goes back to give birth to the lil kiddo. I'm gonna be an aunt! OMG! How freaky. But i'm happy for her.
Roy's father just passed away; helped him play for the 2 funeral services last night and this morning. I didn't even know the man and i almost cried. Sigh. The keyboard I had to use was HORRID though. The keys kept getting stuck. Argh. Irritating sia, make me sound so amateur once again. HAHA. RIGHT, I'm just being really bitchy. Maybe I'm still amateur. SIGH.
Well, at least I wrote a song by myself. And I'm learning to play jazz latin songs with Ruperto. Very fulfilling for my music aspect of life.
Tennis tomorrow with Ruperto. EXCITING!!! I haven't had much time this week to really work out. Sigh. I'm SOOOOO gonna have more lard deposited in my body bank.
I notice I've been getting a lil random and sorta bimbo-ish/dumb these few days.. Not sure why. Maybe the 1 yr break of not studying is finally taking its toll on me, now that I'm gonna start studying real soon.
Jeremy's my new Big MAMA!!! He taught me how to roller-blade.. AND, he brings plastic bags to keep our slippers while blading. So mother-ish feelin. Hahahaha. And I had 2 gelare waffles on tues. Of course I shared with people. Or else I'm gonna be SOOOOO fat.
My mom's not keeping the condo for my 21st birthday as I hoped. She's selling it to buy a HDB flat. Not that I'm complaining, but what's the use of a new flat when we still have to take care of granny at her place. SIGH.
This entry's terribly constructed. Freakin' random.
Oh, I've a pet phrase for this month: karmically bitch-slapped
COOL HUH?!
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Screw-up
I'm going to miss not having to study man. Gosh. I can't believe I screwed up the hostel thingy. What a good start. Sigh.
ANYWAY, Mel just had a pretty big fight with joe. Well, I'm just glad that things went back to normal. :) Prayers do work, as advised by my friend.
Had dinner with Ryan for exactly 1 hour. I SWEAR, I'm so not ever going to have dinner with him unless I've someone else with me. Make me walk around aimlessly in Orchard Road for like... 2 HOURS LAH! Crap. Not that I wanna be a bitch. But, maybe it's a bit more polite if you let me know that you're leaving by a certain time beforehand, instead of just telling me on the spot that you've to leave in like.. 1 min? Thank goodness Fabian made it better. Chocolate crunch cereal! Fattening and sinful. BUT, I guess it's a deservingly good treat once in a while.
It's cool that Mom actually wants me to stay in the hostel. But! Something always has to screw up. How idiotic. First, I had to wait a year longer to get a course in NUS. Next, the fees problem came up. AND THEN, this stupid hostel thing. SIGH. Why ah. Oh well, I'm just taking things as they are. But I am excited nonetheless. :)
OMG. I just realised that I have lots of work to do. Crikey! Alright, that's all really. Nothing much happened. Just hanging around. OH! Played tennis with Pert. Alright, it's more like a tennis lesson. Cool stuff. Can't wait for the next session. :) YAY!
ANYWAY, Mel just had a pretty big fight with joe. Well, I'm just glad that things went back to normal. :) Prayers do work, as advised by my friend.
Had dinner with Ryan for exactly 1 hour. I SWEAR, I'm so not ever going to have dinner with him unless I've someone else with me. Make me walk around aimlessly in Orchard Road for like... 2 HOURS LAH! Crap. Not that I wanna be a bitch. But, maybe it's a bit more polite if you let me know that you're leaving by a certain time beforehand, instead of just telling me on the spot that you've to leave in like.. 1 min? Thank goodness Fabian made it better. Chocolate crunch cereal! Fattening and sinful. BUT, I guess it's a deservingly good treat once in a while.
It's cool that Mom actually wants me to stay in the hostel. But! Something always has to screw up. How idiotic. First, I had to wait a year longer to get a course in NUS. Next, the fees problem came up. AND THEN, this stupid hostel thing. SIGH. Why ah. Oh well, I'm just taking things as they are. But I am excited nonetheless. :)
OMG. I just realised that I have lots of work to do. Crikey! Alright, that's all really. Nothing much happened. Just hanging around. OH! Played tennis with Pert. Alright, it's more like a tennis lesson. Cool stuff. Can't wait for the next session. :) YAY!
Sunday, June 17, 2007
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