:(

I wish I was a smart whiz, so I don't have to worry this much abt my studies.

And with that, I can actually focus on other stuff. Like slimming down and having a social life. I feel so dependent on certain people and things. So like when something goes a lil out of my original plans, my whole day'll be screwed up. And I hate screwed up days. It's such a shitty feeling.

And the fact that I need to be mature and get over that shitty feeling makes me feel even shittier. :(

BLARGH!